My first post

Well, here I go, my first post on my blog:

I don't really know what to put on the first post. Will people someday come back and read this, and be like "it all started here" or will they care less? Actually, since this blog is less for them and more for me, I guess I shouldn't care. But I always will. I will always care about what other people think. Hmm, I guess that's a good first subject to post with as any: the reason why I am doing this (subtitle) what do people really think about me? (or do they at all)

So, I am starting this blog for me. Mostly because I feel that I need somewhere online to post what I am thinking, what I am going through in life, and hope that either someone will try to help me out, or that my words and the conclusions I reach may someday help someone else. I should really go see a therapist, but this is way cheaper, so here I am. Also, I tend to think about things that I'd really like to share, but before now, didn't really have a place to share them. Well I do now!

Ok, so let's lay out who this is going to work: I'm Danielle, I don't use proper grammar, I don't like to capitalize things, and if I get really angry I swear a lot. So that's how this blog is going to be, it's going to be about my life, and what happens to me, as well as random things I think about.

Ok, so back to the subtitle: What do people think about me? (Or do they at all?)
While it doesn't seem like it to most people, I am very concerned about what people think of me. Not so much what I look like, but if they like me or not, and if they talk about me behind my back. I'm always curious what people say about me behind my back, because honestly, this is the way that someone really thinks about you - how they talk about you when you're not around. I try a person that people will like, but let's face it, not everyone in the this will like me all the time. Hell, some people won't ever like me at all, and usually for stupid reasons. But I'm not going to change who I am to be someone who these people like, and that's important too. I'm going to be who I am, and I don't feel the need to change that to fit in with what someone thinks about me.

So yeah, even though I want people to like me as a person overall, I'm not going to change who I am to get them to like me. Does that show maturity? I hope so. Because I've lived my life long enough trying to change who I am so someone accepts me. I've learned that that doesn't really work, because while people might like you, it's not really you that they're liking, it's the persona you created. And unless you want to be the person all the time, well at some time they're not gonna like you again.

Am I paranoid because I think people are talking about me all the time? Probably. Does this mean I'm going to stop worrying about it? I doubt it. All of us on earth, whether we admit it or not, care about what other people think to some extent. You may not care what ALL people think, but there is at least one person in the world, probably more than one, that you want approval from. It's true, think about it, who do you always need to impress? Who do you always ask for their opinion? Who's opinion do you care about, whether you ask or not? See, you DO care about what SOMEONE thinks. I'm pretty sure that's normal, but don't quote me on it.

Ok, so this seems a good place to end my first post. Cya!